where tests and assignments are piling up ; and you feel like you're badly strangled by all the stress.
felt intimidated again during assignment "discussion" with Vern Hui. well it wasnt even a discussion since he was guiding me all the way through the questions.
and he was kinda.. strict. and honest. he kept telling me i had to work harder if i dont want to retake. with sarcastic face and statements and all. damn i almost cried. i seriously dont want to retake. i dont want to waste money :(
now with Boon Seng gone theres practically no one who could make me feel hopeful bout calculus. no ones there to tell me, you will do well, dont worry everythings gonna be okay. and i think i should be optimistic and thank these people for making me realize the harshness of reality. i have to ace test 1. and end all my nightmares.
right now, i dont think i can. just have to sacrifice more. just that lil bit more. cram everything right into my head. and i think i will be able to do it. just gotta push that lil bit more of self-confidence up. just. and WORK HARD.
im sorry to the rest of the adventure race committee. i just cant afford to lose that saturday. im sorry im sorry.
its on monday. and everything is in my hands.
;;; facebook deactivated. to run away from things. just for a little while. i wish i have 48 hours a day, damn.
p/s: what i said in the last post, i think i just did the same thing. FML.
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