#69.

all hail my beautiful diary! the facial mask. hahaha it kinda works on my face, not so red anymore, pimples that were gonna pop up went down, marks became less darker. not to forget smoother skin! okay maybe not so much difference lol but at least there's something! hahaha sooo happy. and the mask smells good. with strawberry flavor. i fell asleep to it. strawberry! my favorite beauty products flavor! okay later im so gonna drop by ri xin to get 2 more, 1 for tonight and 1 to bring back to the land of kuantan. i seriously havent seen it in kuantan before. or maybe i just werent observant enough. hahaha.

anyway, happy thanksgiving everyone! sorry i seriously dont know what its all about. i dont even know whether its cultural or religious. i just saw it on gossip girl. family members all come home to celebrate together. have a nice dinner. its like, our.
团圆饭?

well my point is. i've been so thankful bout everything. seriously. BUT there's just one more teeny weeny thing i need to ask for. please give me an A for Chemistry :) please please pretty please.

#68.

differences between LDPE and HDPE. differences between RNA and DNA. differences between starch and cellulose. think im speaking alien language? studying for chemistry now. and i pretty much already know everything but i dont know. i feel empty. i dont want to study. of all the hours of the day. im feeling stupid again. where did the passion go? i freaking need to score 80 in finals to get an A. sir said he had faith in me, but i dont know. damn. whats wrong with me? i cant afford to lose that A. i NEED it to pull my freaking CGPA up. remember my 3.5. damn you. focus! angry birds is so tempting. but im resisting. i have bout 3 and 4 new drama series in my computer. and im resisting. BUT. what the hell am i doing here? please tell me, im not a useless piece of junk. haish.

*pause for phone call with mom*

should've hidden the status frm my mom last night. now she's all paranoid bout the african dude she keep saying dont go out at night always find a guy to accompany you! lol okay mom. if im really scared bout something i need someone like quan here. but no one's here is like him lol. so i guess im slowly getting independent here. lol. okay maybe only sometimes.

it feels nice to be active on blogger again.

#67.

3 down, 1 to go!
enl101 paper just now. and i chose this question :

explain how a person can overcome the loss of a friend, a family member or a pet.

so i was thinking hard what to write for it. and then i knew i only had to choose 1 of it. but i underlined all 3. randomly only la. then dr.lim saw me doing it. and he said. choose only 1. only 1! with a serious face. hahahaha. then after the paper, we were discussing bout it then i told them what dr.lim did. and they were like, omg why is he so nice to you! and i couldnt help feeling perasan i think dr.lim really sayang me wan lo lol. dont start throwing things at me =.= and just now. i was playing with my pen cap and then it flew. dr.lim picked it up and acted like he was gonna put it in his pocket. then he smiled (cheekily lol) and gave it back to me. too cute! hahaha.
dr.lim told zoe she's gonna fail. cuz she didnt know the white piece of paper was actually a rough paper. and she did one of her essays on that paper. damn. i hope dr.lim wouldnt be so mean on her. i mean. she didnt even break any of the exam rules. and you know what. there was this other guy (i dunno him he's in another class and he's kinda black) his phone rang in the middle of the exam! and his phone just got confiscated. what how can! i thought as long as ur found with a phone then u straight away fail wan. so unfair. i mean. compare the both cases. who deserves to fail? anyway. maybe i comment too much.

ok, i've heard so much bout sam tsui but this is the first time that i actually go and check him out. sorry im noob. and i have to say. damn he rocks. damn damn his voice damn. voice of an angel man damn it. sorry. ignore my damns. he's one damn boy babeh.



walao eh! i want to die already.

#66.

trust me. im going to be nocturnal soon. okay. maybe not. at least i dont wake up at 12 :3
ENL101 final paper, in 4 hrs. and im so not prepared. its not that i need to actually prepare something. but, im totally not in the exam mood. i just, cant wait to be home. buck up, 2 more days!

#65.

nobody realized that boon seng has disappeared. until miss aqila asked me. then i was like, oh yeah. no wonder my facebook and msn have been so peaceful over the past week lol. (oh and as im typing this i see reed. in inti again. hello!) okay. back to my story. ivana and i were like trying to recall when was the last time we saw him. then i rmb. pool. i randomly played pool with him just exactly a week ago. and then he disappeared -.- i rmb he wanted to give dr.lim a surprise (i dunno what) on thursday, but he didnt turn up. and that week, he was boasting bout getting offered to the university of montana? or something. and he said he was going for some PRO maths or whatever IQ test so i guess that the reason of it. boon seng left inti! (i guess)
so calculus finals. wasnt as tough as i expected. only the newton's method question pawned me. others, i managed to finish them last minute even if i was stucked before, and i hope i didnt make any silly mistakes. compared to psychology, i think i did way better. its not that the questions werent tough, it just happened to be, a lot better. and i was in such a good mood i was smiling and laughing to myself (lol siao already) but actually there was a story to it. i bumped into ricky sooo many times today. then when i was walking back to my block, frm far i saw someone who looked like him. frm the opposite way. so i was waiting to tease him. BUT when i was ABOUT to wave. i suddenly realized. SHIT. wrong guy. HAHAHAHAHA and i laughed ON THE SPOT. then the guy was like o.O whats ur effing problem? and i took me bout 10mins to stop. okay. exaggerating. but i was still laughing when i got into my room.
right now eve is hijacking bert's facebook. okay i have a feeling that we're gonna get it frm him.

#64.

7 reasons why girls hate emo guys.
in response to eve's guide to life : after a breakup.

(taking a break from calculus and also practicing writing for enl101 lol wtf)

1. emo guys only wants sympathy. because they think its the end of the world when they break up/get rejected. they want people to show concern, they want people to think "yer why you so cham one" or maybe things like "you deserve someone better" so he can have some sort of self-comfort to make himself feel better.

2. emo guys are usually attention whoresseekers. they MIGHT not be as emo in the inside as what they show outside. especially when he sees THE GIRL around. he MIGHT start doing things like acting to be drunk. NOTE: this is just an example. whether he wants her to feel bad, or whether he just enjoys putting up a show for other people to see. i dont know.

3. i've come to accept the fact that emo-ing=smoking. as i realllly HATE the smell of smoke and i hate smokers, thats equivalent to -- i HATE emo guys. but lately a few from my circle of friends happen to be SOCIAL smokers and they smoked in front of me a couple of times so im kinda used to this, emo thing. hmmm.

4. emo guys act like they're perfectly fine when certain people, especially THE GIRL, try to check whether he's alright. he tries to give this strong image, like, who says im emo over you wor, then puts up his best smile/sends lots of smileys to the girl then behind her, with his bunch of friends he's super emo again (i guess hoping the girl will know at the same time) errr thats whyy. super contradicting wan lo. i dunno what they're thinking bout.

5. emo guys give trouble to their friends. because you know friends care bout friends, the more they dont let him smoke/drink, the more he wants to do it and when he puts up a mess the friends have to take care of him eg. when he is drunk. moreover emo guys spread the emo aura around and some guys i know happen to be easily kena spreaded by the aura so they become emo too. and then they emo together-gether.

6. the friends tend to blame everything on THE GIRL. when they get frustrated. yes, the girl MIGHT not be completely, 100% innocent, but the friends will be like, hey its ur fault lah you broke his heart ma. and thats.. very very annoying. im sure the girl did not point a gun at him and ask him to get all emo emo.

7. EMO GUYS ARE DESPERATE.


p/s: this is a very, very, GENERAL point of view. NOT directed to anyone. sorry if you perasan and think im a bitch.
i thought i could write more, but damn, calculus is more important. kthxbai.

#63.

mom called me and asked hows my psycho. told her honestly, it was very tough. while expecting her to nag or scold "sure you never study wan lo everyday enjoy."

but instead. she said "how tough? but university level already what. can pass or not?"

WAAAA. my mom. asking me whether i can PASS a paper. and not whether i can score an A.
for the first time. and that actually motivated me.

i dont care i promised you cgpa > 3.5 then i'll try my best. i can do better than this. thanks mom !

#62.

i practically died this afternoon, i thought i was charged but its only 12am and im sleepy already. maybe i should just shoot myself, damn. screw calculus.

#61.

10 freaking reasons why malaysian studies is the dumbest subject in my life :
1. its history. translated into english. 5 years of sejarah not torturing enough meh?
2. its compulsory to take before flying off wtf why would you even need that in the US?
3. it makes you sleep and daydream.
4. it makes you slack. worse, it demotivates you.
5. it makes you go to sing k. (not that im complaining hahaha)
6. it makes you put it as the last priority. (cgpa not counted ma, cheh) so you study last minute and half-heartedly.
7. it makes you forgetskip breakfast.
8. it makes you feel stupid during the exam because the objective part has crazy options.
9. it makes you squeeze your brainjuice and crap so much in the subjective parts.
10. it makes you freeze to death in the exam hall.

DAMN YOU MALAYSIAN STUDIES.
i think i passed?

#60.

i'll be having my malaysian studies finals tmrw and i got so bored studying this useless shit so i decided to come blogging. last night i had a dream that i could rmb too because it was so scary it freaked the shit outta me trust me im not joking. (ignore the shits) so in the dream sujing and i was walking at some back alley (i dont rmb the earlier part of the dream) and then we suddenly heard this bark and saw this lil puppy. i tried to give it a pat when it suddenly turned around and we realized its a dog demon. yes you heard me right. its a small normal labrador except that it has freaky eyes and a demon mouth. i mean teeth. well, short and pointy, all joined together. with BLACK blood. omg the image is starting to haunt me again. anyway when we were in the process of freaking out (assume that it happens in slow motion) the dog demon bit sujing on her leg. and i tried to pull it off but it just wouldnt let go. while sujing screamed in pain. then i kinda pinched hard on the puppy's head, and it finally let go. i quickly flung the puppy into a drain and we ran for our dear lives. i had to support sujing all the way as her leg was hurt. we ran and ran until we were sure that its safe. the dog demon wasnt following. so there was a huge wound on sujing's leg. with black all around it. as you know dreams dont make sense so suddenly a clinic appeared in front of us. then we went in, and the doctor said he had to suck all the poison out.

and from there, i couldnt rmb what happened. told eve a lil bout this dream and she was like, better ask sujing to be careful. damn, i dont want to freak her out. hope this is just some random dream. and for sure. i dont wanna get any of this again. seriously. this morning i was so scared when i took my shower. something might just come in and attack me =.= and. i might not wanna get near any baby labradors for a while.

#59,

i dont usually remember dreams. so im gonna talk bout the one i had last night.
so it was already sem break =.= and i got my results. and i freaking scored 3.8 lol and my mom decided to reward me by buying me a bag. so in that dream we were at marc jacobs midvalley. then we saw this blue bag, something like chelsy's but in a much more smaller version. and in that dream i was super lansi and i wanted to buy an expensive bag to use as my school bag and show off =.= so i told my mom that bag was too small for me. then i started to throw a tantrum and asked my dad to drive all of us to klcc and he got lost all the way then my mom screamed at me and i ended up getting nothing.
then, i woke up realizing that the dream was full of crap because:
a) in no way im gonna score as high as 3.8 because i estimated 3.5-3.6 lol.
b) its impossible for my mom to get such luxuries for me and also i dont need it.
c) as far as i remember theres no marc jacobs outlet in midvalley.
d) im not sure whether the bag i imagined in the dream is of the same size of the smaller version that chelsy described lol.
e) my dad can always find his way to almost all the malls so the probability of him getting lost is bout 1%.
f) im not that spoilt.
g) dreams are always crappy.

okayy.

#58.

it has been raining for the past few days. so just now i was happily and semangat-ly studying my psycho while enjoying my hot soya bean when my stomach started twisted badly (omg lol you get what i mean) and it go so unbearable and i lost my mood to continue studying. went to the toilet twice and i dont rmb what brought me to youtube. and i started youtubing. mostly glee videos la. and i listened to teenage dream and telephone more than 10 times. each. gulped down a lot of water with 2 bottles of poh chai yuens as mama told me, and got a lil better. feeling so guilty now, but at least i covered all the chapters that i planned to study today. and my classes end at 2 tmrw, so i'll have time to study. :) before this i was kinda paranoid la, afraid that i cant finish all the chaps but now everythings kinda okay. just need to fully memorize everything, esp psycho, i seriously need to crap a lot to make the essays look superr long, and shankar will be so happy. damn, tmrw have to wake up early again. but the trip to mcd was kinda enjoying today. thanks bert for driving us there. hahaha we kinda forced him to do so la cuz i failed in driving manual chehh. we disturbed him outside his window until he woke up :p hanging out with them people is superrr nice! heee and i secretly hope that kharmen and guangyi will get official soon. lol dont ask my why, i just want to see some couple action cuz all this while the whole gang are like single and theres nothing interesting to watch. okay maybe im weird. and i hope simba will get over everything soon! yk just texted me and told me the whole desa palma is having blackout now. hahaha nice. so imma go sleep cuz its going to be 1am and he cant watch the videos already so goodnight people study hard for finals!

#57.

It all started with me and JJwong discussing bout what Simba blogged bout, and we moved on to talking bout our old blogs, and it suddenly occured to me that right now, in college, or maybe, this year, there's nothing actually worth blogging. I mean like, there's nothing that could make us THINK and write bout our thoughts on it, you know. I don't know how to express it. During our high school days we cherish bout our blogs more than our Facebook. Or maybe Friendster, during Form1 Form2. I don't know, last time there was this thing on my blog where I could check how many visitors have visited my blog, stuff like that. And I used to check it a few times everyday for goodness' sake. And when it got more than 10 clicks I would me happy like mad. Seriously =.= JJWong says its because we're not bimbos anymore. HAHAHA. Seriously, last time I was already damn hypocritical because I remember when I had that fight with Lich, I kept emphasizing on my blog, "Is popularity that important?" Something like that, acted like I don't care bout what people would think bout me but deep down my heart I was kinda hoping that people would be on my side and against her. Wtf thats childish and there, I admit it now. Is it really because we don't really care bout things anymore? I miss reading blogs. I miss commenting on people's blogposts. Now in our gang the few who actually still blog are me, JJWong, Bert and Simba. I hardly ever update with stuff worth reading, JJWong, seldom update but theres still isi to her posts, Bert, just very official posts, and Simba, emo posts. Which are quite interesting to read. Damn, Dr.Lim says we should practise writing everyday by writing a diary. But thats.. Hmm. Okay maybe I should resume blogging. I'll try. I mean. What if I grow up with nothing to remember bout my college life? What if people ask me like 20 years later, what did you do in INTI and I'll be like, errr, I don't really remember. Wtf why am I being paranoid all of a sudden. LOL. Finals next week some more. Talk bout last minute realization =.= Damn, it's 12 and I'm hungry, and I said I would eat with YK and gang? They're not texting me so I guess I'll do it. Damn and I wasted the whole morning. I really should go. And the worst thing is, my first semester is ending and I only had like 10 posts and some of them are not even related to my college life. Thats.. Really sad. Okay ciao.

#56.

Fear vs. Disappointment

I need my maths brain back. Seriously. Please come to me. I need you during finals. I can't freaking flunk my first semester. These days I keep questioning myself, why can't you do it when everyone else can? And I realize I've been disappointing myself these few years. I know I can do better than this. Need something to give me a push and open my eyes. LOOK PROPERLY. Your parents pay for you to study here, you have to do your best. DO YOUR BEST. Damn. I seriously don't want to flunk my first semester. Study mood, COME TO ME. Please. FEEL GUILTY NOW.

#55.

Hello blogging frm my phone. Testing testing.

#54.

I need a getaway. Can't wait to be home. Things are pretty complicated right here. And I just had to change the link. Don't want it to be too publicized. I need the blogging mojo seriously. And I need to study hard. I need motivation. I need determination. And I get it everytime I swim. Baby iPod is not back yet. I miss you :(