finalizing csc assignment to be handed in by 12pm tomorrow, current coursework mark is 36.1% with another 14% not given yet (suppose can get at least errr..11%?) and all i feel is S.T.R.E.S.S ! at least i didnt screw up my tests like the rest of the class did oooops.
with bio coursework mark of 50.85% and sta coursework mark of 50.38%, gotta work hard to make sure that i get A for both ://
quoting mr.yeap ex chem lecturer: "coursework as long as above 50 can easily get an A" wooots. but still must study 99.
as for calculus 2, coursework mark undetermined for the moment, but die die also must a.. B minus? at least? on the plus side i didnt drop it and have to retake :// anyway.
dreading finals. counting down to birthday. cant wait for sem break.
make full use of the study week or regret forever!
again quoting mr.yeap: "as long as you study hard you dont need to be scared. some more your bio is taught by mr.lim i think no problem" hahaha :)) everytime fb chat with him also damn funny one.
okay aza aza !
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Monday, April 18, 2011
#104. Faith.
service at acts church was awesome today. apparently they dont have a church in nilai yet so the weekly service is held at one of the ballrooms at empress hotel. kinda cool actually. the pastor's name was.. sandra chin? i rmb her from revo kuantan 2009 i think. she was so funny. totally enjoyed the preaching. apart from the fact that it was freaking cold in there but samuel was there taking care of me (kind of, he kept asking whether im alright and tried to cover my arms with the goodie bags we got there hahaha such a gentleman but with a cute girlfriend for years thats too bad).
still dont like the idea of the praying in tongue and also the healing thingy at acts-based churches though. but one good thing is, they emphasize a lot of being semangat at both singing and preaching. they shout and scream and cheer a lot. of course it brings up the atmosphere unlike the normal ones we go to. (no mentioning bout holy spirit, just focus on the greatness of God just that). dunno how to explain la actually. i think both kind of churches are good in their own ways. still undecided whether wanna go back to acts church again next weekend. the bad thing is that they end around almost 2pm. gila.
so today we were preached bout the light. bout how God provides us with light (not sunlight) to bring away the darkness around us. which means evil la. and it totally struck me lo. bout how we shudnt talk bad bout others and how sinful it is. which reminds me of her. its not that i still tak insaf-ly talk bout her but it kinda made me realized how bad it was. and i should always ask for His help whenever im in deep shit or committing some sins (lol i dunno how to put it in words) and God is always looking after you. and this totally happened to me today!! the internet went down when i really needed to study and there. i did. although not much. but at least i studied with all my study aura gone this weekend. lol i guess today im really lost of words but never mind la understand then can already.
dont sin anymore la. and pastor sandra talked bout how she lied to her mother bout going out with her friends but actually went out with a boy and ended up getting caught. hahahah! okay la. if this happens to me i'll try to tell my mom honestly. not like i already have a boyfriend now but. that doesnt mean i'll be single forever hahahah what am i talking bout -.-
just remember to always walk with God and i believe He'll always show you THE LIGHT so you will not be blinded by the evil aura around you. wooots. finally get the feel back :)) God is good and so are you!
9 more days. but im not looking forward to it. i mean. just neutral feelings la. its just a birthday afterall? its not that i can just get anything i want. hahaha. should be worrying more bout finals wei. C: good results and thats what i really want for my 19th birthday.
still dont like the idea of the praying in tongue and also the healing thingy at acts-based churches though. but one good thing is, they emphasize a lot of being semangat at both singing and preaching. they shout and scream and cheer a lot. of course it brings up the atmosphere unlike the normal ones we go to. (no mentioning bout holy spirit, just focus on the greatness of God just that). dunno how to explain la actually. i think both kind of churches are good in their own ways. still undecided whether wanna go back to acts church again next weekend. the bad thing is that they end around almost 2pm. gila.
so today we were preached bout the light. bout how God provides us with light (not sunlight) to bring away the darkness around us. which means evil la. and it totally struck me lo. bout how we shudnt talk bad bout others and how sinful it is. which reminds me of her. its not that i still tak insaf-ly talk bout her but it kinda made me realized how bad it was. and i should always ask for His help whenever im in deep shit or committing some sins (lol i dunno how to put it in words) and God is always looking after you. and this totally happened to me today!! the internet went down when i really needed to study and there. i did. although not much. but at least i studied with all my study aura gone this weekend. lol i guess today im really lost of words but never mind la understand then can already.
dont sin anymore la. and pastor sandra talked bout how she lied to her mother bout going out with her friends but actually went out with a boy and ended up getting caught. hahahah! okay la. if this happens to me i'll try to tell my mom honestly. not like i already have a boyfriend now but. that doesnt mean i'll be single forever hahahah what am i talking bout -.-
just remember to always walk with God and i believe He'll always show you THE LIGHT so you will not be blinded by the evil aura around you. wooots. finally get the feel back :)) God is good and so are you!
9 more days. but im not looking forward to it. i mean. just neutral feelings la. its just a birthday afterall? its not that i can just get anything i want. hahaha. should be worrying more bout finals wei. C: good results and thats what i really want for my 19th birthday.
Saturday, April 16, 2011
#103. IF. you wouldnt answer my calls.
get tired very early nowadays but then when i reluctantly get to bed i cant sleep and gotta listen to songs to make myself sleepy what is this man shizzzz waste all my time only :/
best emo song of all times! even after months? best until i can get up to blog bout it :D hey awesome vid too just look at seulong haha so yummmay.
2AM. they never fail to come up with great ballads. :)
time for a new album my dearsss. something better than saint o' clock ploxxxx
wait. i think i've said this million times already. haha bedtimeeee! gotta study my ass of tomorrows.
best emo song of all times! even after months? best until i can get up to blog bout it :D hey awesome vid too just look at seulong haha so yummmay.
2AM. they never fail to come up with great ballads. :)
time for a new album my dearsss. something better than saint o' clock ploxxxx
wait. i think i've said this million times already. haha bedtimeeee! gotta study my ass of tomorrows.
Friday, April 15, 2011
#102. Transition.
its the time again.
when emo and insecurity strikes. you force yourself to sleep but just cant do so.
and the music player decides to play around with your feelings, playing all the emo songs on shuffle.
and the question is up again. something i've never gotten a clear answer for years.
whats my purpose of life? even if i dont know, am i living up to it? am i wasting too much time of my life doing unnecessary things?
a never ending cycle it is.
must go to church this sunday no matter what. wanna get back that feel :D
am learning to appreciate every moment and everything around me. and happy birthday mama. love you.
when emo and insecurity strikes. you force yourself to sleep but just cant do so.
and the music player decides to play around with your feelings, playing all the emo songs on shuffle.
and the question is up again. something i've never gotten a clear answer for years.
whats my purpose of life? even if i dont know, am i living up to it? am i wasting too much time of my life doing unnecessary things?
a never ending cycle it is.
must go to church this sunday no matter what. wanna get back that feel :D
am learning to appreciate every moment and everything around me. and happy birthday mama. love you.
Friday, April 8, 2011
#101. The reply.
first i wanna apologize to you for disappointing you over and over again. i seriously need to lock up the bitch inside me haha :D
okay first. if you know me i think you will know that im a very insecure person. i do not know how ppl feel unless they can show me very properly. i think i know you guys love me, but sometimes i just feel that you guys love the new friends more than you love me. sometimes i feel that you're hanging out with me not because you really like to hang out with me, but because we've been hanging out since forever. maybe its stupid to have that thought, but sometimes when i feel that way i would be like thinking, why ah? is it because im not fun enough? is it because of things i do annoy you or what. why is it that i cant be the important one because sometimes im left out from being jio-ed to things. is it because i've been very bitchy? or what. think think think then emo. this is how i feel la but maybe i think too much :(
cannot say that they're a bad influence also cuz apart from the bullying? if thats what you guys see, we didnt do any other evil things? at first everything started as a joke then i dont know why we just got used to all the backstabbing and stuff. me and C, we regret everytime after we did all the mean things, we made each other promise not to repeat the mistake sooo many times, but everytime there's just something she does that piss us off. thanks for reminding me, cuz what we've been doing is sooo. high school. seriously, why did i ever forget? we're old enough for these shits. maybe we've been running away from the truth, we dont want to believe that what we did was wrong, what we did was so bitchy and if this happens in high school, the whole world could've hated us already. except that this is already college, nobody really cares and the fact that maybe, nobody likes her enough to stand up for her. maybe we should really talk over it like an adult..
and about him, you're right. what you said are truths piercing through my heart. i need time. maybe im willing to give up that 0.1%. i just need some time. to meet someone new?
you know i love you too.
okay first. if you know me i think you will know that im a very insecure person. i do not know how ppl feel unless they can show me very properly. i think i know you guys love me, but sometimes i just feel that you guys love the new friends more than you love me. sometimes i feel that you're hanging out with me not because you really like to hang out with me, but because we've been hanging out since forever. maybe its stupid to have that thought, but sometimes when i feel that way i would be like thinking, why ah? is it because im not fun enough? is it because of things i do annoy you or what. why is it that i cant be the important one because sometimes im left out from being jio-ed to things. is it because i've been very bitchy? or what. think think think then emo. this is how i feel la but maybe i think too much :(
cannot say that they're a bad influence also cuz apart from the bullying? if thats what you guys see, we didnt do any other evil things? at first everything started as a joke then i dont know why we just got used to all the backstabbing and stuff. me and C, we regret everytime after we did all the mean things, we made each other promise not to repeat the mistake sooo many times, but everytime there's just something she does that piss us off. thanks for reminding me, cuz what we've been doing is sooo. high school. seriously, why did i ever forget? we're old enough for these shits. maybe we've been running away from the truth, we dont want to believe that what we did was wrong, what we did was so bitchy and if this happens in high school, the whole world could've hated us already. except that this is already college, nobody really cares and the fact that maybe, nobody likes her enough to stand up for her. maybe we should really talk over it like an adult..
and about him, you're right. what you said are truths piercing through my heart. i need time. maybe im willing to give up that 0.1%. i just need some time. to meet someone new?
you know i love you too.
Friday, April 1, 2011
#100. the 1st of April,
has never been a significant date to me, as im never an aprils fool person. never good in lying and also never good in acting. and seldom got fooled also :p
someone texted me "i miss you" and thats the only prank i got today :D
then it was like any other ordinary days until vernhui told me i got 30+ for my cal2 test2. which totally woke me up from my nap and i got soooo happy and until now i still dunno whether its real or not cuz its too unbelievable omg i dont need to retake cal2!!!
then i couldnt get back to sleep because i was too excited and i decided to fool people by changing my relationship status (not creative at all i know i know but i just want to do it lahhh :p)
now i wonder whether my mom will call and ask me bout it later. XD
p/s: holding back my laughter while watching hanjia and gang's moral video as the roomie is sleeping. hahaha rocks la wei.
someone texted me "i miss you" and thats the only prank i got today :D
then it was like any other ordinary days until vernhui told me i got 30+ for my cal2 test2. which totally woke me up from my nap and i got soooo happy and until now i still dunno whether its real or not cuz its too unbelievable omg i dont need to retake cal2!!!
then i couldnt get back to sleep because i was too excited and i decided to fool people by changing my relationship status (not creative at all i know i know but i just want to do it lahhh :p)
now i wonder whether my mom will call and ask me bout it later. XD
p/s: holding back my laughter while watching hanjia and gang's moral video as the roomie is sleeping. hahaha rocks la wei.
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